Try not to think about how deep the water is when you’re swimming out of your depth.
Yesterday, sitting in my office with only my 7 selves to reassure me, I got a bit totally overwhelmed. 
Having had only a semi-productive week, trying to read journal articles with too many big words and attending seminars full of clever people like registrars and geneticists and doctors researching cures for cot death, it dawned on me that, well, I’m not 100% sure what I’m doing. 
And that scared me. And made me feel stupid. 
So what did I do about it? I sacked the day off, came home, bought ice-cream, went for a run, made meatballs and watched 2 hours of Brothers and Sisters. Sensible. I know. 
And I would like to say that taking the evening to feel sorry for myself/indulge myself/refresh myself helped me to have a productive day today. But I actually haven’t even made it to the office. Because I designated today ‘mope day’. 
But next week will be different. It will. Next week Dr. Rach will emerge. Really… 
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